I feel like I’m on an emotional rollercoaster. Today was great. Nothing to complain about. There were the typical arguments with teachers, but I always purposely pick fights with them, especially if they’re wrong about something. I got home and I was in a good mood. Got my hair trimmed and that was fine. Set an appointment to get my hair done for prom. Then I came home, and from there my mood plummeted. I ate supper and started my homework only to find out that the printer has no ink. So I start working on my anthro and I can’t find one answer after another and get frustrated. So I smoke, walk to the BP and pick up more cigs and try my online homework. I started reading but before I knew it I was half-way through the reading and nothing registered. I don’t know what the hell I read.
I feel like I can’t funtion. I’m not physically sick, and my arm is even getting better, but I don’t want to move. I want to mindlessly play Pokemon on my game boy or lie on my bed and stare at the ceiling. Even sleeping is getting hard again.
And I’m sure tomorrow this same thing will happen. I’ll get up, have the stomach ache I always have in the morning, have a decent day, argue with teachers just because I can, and get home where it will go down hill. Even though there’s no open mic tomorrow because the cafe is in the middle of moving, I still might go to Beaner’s or something.
cheers.
